no school today.
teacher plan.
plus, it's election day.

i feel sort of non-matching.
i have pj pants on with a dress. oh well.

i've got my favorite ring on; i was just looking at it. it's a band of elephants that circle around my finger..with baby elephants standing beneath their mothers.

i dyed my hair. it looks black, but i swear it's not. i love the color, and i love the way it's cut. maybe it won't grow.

so, if life happens the wat i want it to, (it usually doesn't) there are 22 days in counting. you know..

so, for the past five years my favorite band has been paramore. when i say favorite, i really mean obsession. i think my love is starting to diminish. it makes me incredibly sad because it just shows that i'm changing, that my life is changing, that my taste is changing. that scares the living hell out of my. it gets me thinking about my future and what i'm going to do with my life. scary stuff, eh?

the one person i could always go to, she's nowhere to be found (she says she is, but it's just spoken word). i was comfortable, and i felt safe. i loved that feeling, and sometimes i think about it and miss it terribly. love. i thought i was lost, but i realized some people don't fit. it's okay to be soulmates, yet in some cases things just don't work. on that note, i decided i can't be miserable. i distracted myself because when i was alone i would cry and think horrible things. nowadays, i rarely have to distract myself. yes, there are those rare occasions, but i think i'm okay. i'm trying to move forward, not move on, and i feel i'm doing a pretty okay job. there's someone who's tugging at my heart, helping me move along; to get through everyday, and i thank my higher power for her. she was always there. i hope she always stay there, too. i don't ever want to let her go..or in my case push her away. i believe this quite possibly may be something i'm ready to plunge my black and blue heart into.

my friend and i drove to her ex-boyfriend's house to exchange their stuff.. she didn't shed a tear, and i am VERY PROUD of her. good girl.

by the way, i need a job.